Regarding the reality I impose on - by Abenezer

 Regarding reality I impose on - by Abenezer

Exposure to opinion: enough to ask questions, - from anywhere, anyone. One day I might only have comms and PR to rely on and trust that a 1 is a 1 and a 2 is a 2 from judging statistics, so far abstracted from opinions and in absense of exposure - missing what's raw and vivid

I don't care about what happened, I just want better - I just haven't had it better yet
Onward! That's my directive...

What hurts is "what it's about", not the torture - it can be demonizing, triggering.

My priority is self-directive of my own existence - and not concerning myself with that of another

I have always had world domination intentions - I want it all, and I've got a plan

My adgenda is to have end and have no more of generational transfer of pain - the production of new power

I didn't want it to start and I certainly didn't want it after the fact - my directive about a homosexual lesbian girl hiding her secret

What I couldn't be satisfied with that's over-the-counter, filling a prescription, and from a store-front - I demanded using "faith" and I was punished for it and think deservingly so

If you are a woman and we fall in love learning together, you will be dicked on-site - I am not a teacher and not on work drugs. You don't undermine a teacher's monogomy or hetersosexuality - even if it seems like a dare to, you are to regard them as a teacher even outside the classroom

I always want more money, I want more intelligence - or so whip me society

I want a wheel to be a wheel when I need it most - when there is wheel slipage and maybe understeer, so I don't use the phrase "training wheel"

There is no "us" or "we" - that audience pool has 1 less member, me. Society was a different time - I only regard my own existence, making note of instances otherwise

I want my existence to end and no more of it - perfect tense propisition in English

For "kill confirmed" and "care package" in Call of Duty, 1 decision needs to be 2 - the scavenging of dog tags from where an enemy died, and the opening of the supply drop before a teammate or enemy claims it

Precidence is 1 decision becoming many

An exchange is 1 decision, not 2 - a giving to be taken, at once

If I feel good about how I got there then I don't worry or concern about being taken from it or it being taken away from me

I don't want to not be rejected by my own body - seeking flow and not contention

Erk worthy is thinking I'm close to what's good, salivating what's good, and advocating on behalf of another to what's good - I can get good at what's good

"who tryna get bodied, ha? who tryna get bodied?!" is what I say as I look around the room I just entered - and if I don't, it means I was absent minded, not consious of my actions, and wondered only to be taken by lonliness

I reinforce the ideals worth advancing and it starts with what would be nice - if

I exhaust questions about anything - intentionally neglecting to answer what become better and better questions, and widened perspectives of the problem that adjust focus and shift starvation for a solution to abundance inqusition that eases contention of problem-solution

I like being right, I like being correct - so I enjoy the baskets I make playing ball

I only know letters and digits, not numbers and words - I still haven't fillled the little  triangle in the letter 'A' yet

I am not a candiate for same-sex marriage, despite what the 14th ammendment "due-process" imposes on me as regard it in reading

I show up for 1 thing, and 1 thing only

I am not idelogical at all (i think) and I don't care much for good v.s. bad right v.s. wrong. I am only against LGBTQ / homosexuality, always.

SNAP's (makers of Snapchat) tagline is "smart", "kind", and "creative". Kindness, likely a choice amongst many options, from smart people is pleasant but not from those who are not

A women, your wife, - if you love her - can turn you into bigger than a diety and royalty

I prepare a thoughtful response so I am not jocked by artists who are players - and I better

What I am greatful for, I hope appreciates in value - because I do appreciate it

An 18 year-old should be empowered to be a rebel, to challenge entrenchment (securing of one's place), and to displace any that dare compete for the status of the-young, the-youth. The onus is on me - having left a man's testicles and a women's womb - to exemplify vigor in presence of adults, parents, and the elderly...act if necessary

I am always clean, even when I am not - and I am nurturing of myself...
*but I am filthy*
(a flash crash, capitualization, underdog, pandemic, crown jewel, juggernaut, striker, VTOL, premium organic, no bubbles screen protector, throw it all away and start-over the night before)

I hedge as a rebel, counter-culture. I don't respond to last year's news cycle.

I plan to discriminate against LGBTQ and I plan on doing it "eliciting privately held preferences". If you ask them to label themselves, they will proudly tell you they are homosexuals and gating against them is as simple as just asking. Can't script this haha

I have seen genius drive by, intelligence fill in the gaps, smart being choosy, brilliance wall with see-through...but what I don't *itch* for doesn't inspire me - well, maybe if an animal scratched me I'd wonder why I didn't know I needed to itch. In all seriousness: I am not amused if I don't out-do myself. I want to be inticed, I want to be demonized and possessed by a potent viral idea, and I want to be violated to my last breath - only for the government and military to patch me up with refurbishing of human heuristics.

I don't get to act or teach, otherwise I'd be discredited as a teacher or an actor. It's important to not be overtaken by your craft

I am heterosexual and don't intend to change - me not wanting it is enough

I accept the conditions I am in and keep going, continue - however reluctant and hesitant. I don't want it "back" & won't force it so get lost you poser

Obselete - Replaced with new, better, fashionable. I thought "enumeration" was inspiring (ordered, series?)

You get hit - you get hit

ElitePowered - "Everyone is elite at what they do - bringing them together will truly empower the world". Audiences, forecasting, performance review, gathering, materialize, advance, onus

If the law is used for homosexuality, then I'll sign anything - and- I'll smoke anything
Self destruction of property is a gay idea

I don't engage people's psyche

You want to be indoctrined for the first 12 years of school and for first 18 years of your life - you may not know better yet

The 1st time I became suicidal is when a suggestingly homosexual French/Ethiopian girl forced her way into my life when I was ~22 years old, since then my life has been and will forever be rendered useless - everything I produce is a product of suicide, useless to the living.

Suicide is a gay idea - a deviation from the main directive of living. Forever-young: no-retirement joy-ride evoked can have one let-themselves-go. A heterosexual that was imposed on to by a homosexual argueably thereafter are considered defect and always means never having "not suicide" as the only thing you know ... and ... the only way you know of this life. Ideations of suicide solved with anti-psychotic/depressant meds heal, -- but once-suicidal - always suicidal and practically "a dead man walking". The gay can self-demise the straight and-maybe-even-arrow go-getters into self-harm cumpulsions, possessive antics of taboo self-expression...that are self-inflicting and damning, and hysteria of a sissy coward succumbing to duality of flamboyant

A candle stick and whick represent the heuristics of psychological price barriers, "peak" behavior, and pick cheap-prices

In-strength the order-fills and volume is high

With, 6-seconds (a word, a name),-- 5-minutes (piece, dozen), -- 4-hours (work with break, $100 /hr ~= $250,000 salary / FDIC), -- 3-days (habit,  streaking 21-days (3x TGIF's), involuntary psych lock-up),-- 2-weeks (cadance, trial, dosage, 15-point bubble-burst washing steady-hands), -- 1-month (pay, 1 minority agaist 3 majority)

I just recently found out I am a diplomat. I took nearly 20 years to know of what to me was secret. Injustice! They illegally taxed me and my property (Bitcoin) for 3 years and had me living a life of self-torture thinking I was evading taxes when in reality I can be exempt freely from taxation entirely as a Diplomat. I bragged saying "I am a diplomat's son instead of acknowledging myself as a diplomat, a dignitary - what I had not the means to do with out welfare and food stamps: finally realizing I am a diplomat even as I held a passport that says "DIPLOMAT" "PASSPORT", and with my name in it, and my photos along with valid visa stamps. I was kept from secret of my own identity

Always clean, nurture myself -- but I am filthy. Success is just a step.

I can't be responding to age-old news-cycles

Obselete: "replaced with new, better, fashionable" -- enumerate: series, order

It's good enough to - know that I could, there are many ways, and a contact high from a narcotic lure for sure

In-strength, we want to understand the customer and their pain points first hand

I know I want to reach prefection - and really would happily settle for "anything is possible" heuristic...can i shadow the robot?

I need a narcotic and I need a stimulant but with a neuropsychological evaluation - a chill pill, "a new feel" -- yours, ADHD type

If Alchohol badges "suggestive themes" for alchohol, Apple TV+ should warn "homosexuality" as the theme, narrative, and color-science porn - "buwha"

I am a winner - through and through - always been, always was, and am. It's all I know and it's all I ever want to know. You have to be right about everything, in-strength *peak* can be start of a decline
Sybolism is costly, affordance, lineage artifact, memorabilia. Celebrate, "say that", and emphermal stock certificates ...that vested, like $25/share...who sells all of it...now I leave the last piece (1/4)

Heuristic: 3/4, less-than-perfect, more than half, -- (1/4) less than half, better-than-nothing

Pro, like: pro-duce *ahem*: -- pro-duct (ivity) management

Either everyone but me has multi-threaded thinking and I am the only one

14 definitions of "here": *here* are a few: -- give-take: *here*, "hit this"
exhange: in-effect, -- "*here*: at-this spot" -- student: *raising* -"*here*: I'd like help"

non-linear thinking w/o loss of duality

"this for that", "better", "not this"
and other downloadable heuristical hits
-- muscle memory: "i just forgotten sexy", auto-tune: with narcotics

Labeling feeling -- discribe emotions, like: hot-glue stick, rubber stamping, exhaust-questions, violate anything-and-everything with whip-cream cannister chill-force

It feels like there can be progress in any one of the seasons, if I age - so has grace

There is no one around to correct wrong-doing, if the state department kept from me for nearly 2 decades - my identity as a dignitary, a diplomat (all on my own) -- per my passport from 2006 entry. If they fail a dignitary, who is to say otherwise for constituants, tax-payers, citizens, aliens >.<

Like to be the first to hear it - speak at ease beauty

Network hype better than 5G bars -- my 9k Linked-In connections fed me news of healthy perspective of consumer technology, & venture capital. Without exposure to opinions, questions don't get raised

What could be better, too of abundance, than storefront, prescribed, over-the-counter?

"way-of-life" and "the go-to", idiology

Paying back what you owe is a two-way interaction; paying what you borrowed in full - a singular exhange, a deal -- no lenders are used as security for individual

I accept the conditions I'm in -- how ever hesitant, reluctant - nevertheless: I continue, I keep on' going

Scratch-offs, right-now's winning numbers...why a device for obfescited hints, peek-a-boo, fireworks

3rd arm around-the-house -technologist

"submit" - darwin reason u understand colony  space vacum suiting, dust collection, surf maps, exchange-trader maps, generative-AI game maps tailer-made to a date (MGE game-mod TF2), king-of-the hill 2v1 map & game mode, rally 2v2, 4 passengers-driver 1

(N) A-Z (N) - N unit: 200 years of movies - silent projectors & drive-in parking lot idle giant 6ft up -n- around, 100 years of film cinema color, 10 year dedication to 720p (standard fidelity) than 1440p (high definition) trauma normilization (every streaming app overlays year like (2012) and "Movie-Name" - a marqee poster show primeer "July 4th" - shows "July 20", casting a count-down ball-drop-moments that exponentially move average of give-up, solitude, contact times for cold & flu sickness around special days of congregation events: excitment (hype) and anticipation (early reserve, less reservation) to aired broadcast (theather) that gant-charted looks like 30 sec trailer clips arranged in tv-programming channel guide. Race and random mean similar things: "ra" concurrs (being last-position & enduring / lasting-the-race)
-- and -- concurrs (random because it's a given-n-taken by you & it happens to be for: - you). "di" concurs diameter & diameter -- respectivelly -- to mean extent gone and distance (moving to CA to escape slavery in the garden state - NV will do). Of course "what is a viral internet trend that you don't believe in real life": in Oakland streets I thought to myself: crypto(curremcies) & gaming. The volume seems exponential moving average every 4 year-periods of the halfening that adds price pressure as close to 21 million Bitcoin are mined in reward for transaction confirmationa by miners with ASCI on PCI-e slots (don't have operating-system like "mechanism deaign" to work together, cross-over compute, don't interact, don't share anything but bus route, but are power-houses for SD storage, networking, hashing / video graphic cards, I/O, etc -- they should collude vivid renderings, obstruct race-conditions across express slots on mother-board, they should counter-fit bridging multiple graphics card or maybe even RAID across storage, maybe contempt BIOS entirely and store memory for enclaves and maybe even KVM network or process registery). Gaming seems sensible to think about but high volume in gaming means lots of new game spending which requires healthy and trendy discovery tactics, rituals, and migrations. That makes sense...people meet up at a theater (movies) and concert venue (music) gathering over their fav art installment that moves (light/sound) and the (action) the video games they play are enroached by now stationary (non-moving) discovery happening at Game Stop which is neck-and-neck with Nintendo for value-capture in gaming. I popularized Call of Duty: mobile to 9,900+ connections since 2012 on LinkedIn of what are venture capital and exec elites of Silicon Valley and technology. I streamed, posted videos, and played cross-platform on tablet with mouse, on Android as I stream, and phone across  devices - I showed it off because I wanted to make the mobile gaming market bigger, maybe represent art and start gaming studio, and reward/punish, and to reinforce advancement, symbolism (i thought Activision making the game with a Chinese mobile game company violates the patriotic pride we should have in American pop culture icon of military camos, guns, and interactive combat campaign...I knew America would spend...and it did: After 4 days of public game-play, on the 5th day I made good on my campaign playing the multi-player Call of Duty: Mobile game I popularized and advanced it...Activision was acquired for $69 Billion by Microsoft. I quick-scoped with a sniper rifle, streamed live and published videos with hip-hop music soundtrack to mobile edited montage videos, and even amassed spectators of my behavior across everything-i-have social reach and audience that also include 2 gaming titans: Anna Sweet and Robin Walker from Valve Software which was the brunt of me teaching a lesson for disrespect felt after restoration of my community access of my Steam (pc gaming) account where I founded a 75,000 people gaming community. Valve was competing with Nintendo on a Switch-like mobile gaming device. I hurt them where it matters the hard mobile gaming market and I told them to "ship faster". I love Valve (Software), makers of Steam, and they un-banned me once I appealed with "I am a valuable contributor to the Team Fortress 2 community" (basically "I love you -- what's this?!). I made gaming market bigger (which already is bigger than movie & music), made money bigger, and the psychology of a billion better, and I stood up for my digital real estate peoperty - grass-roots, female 1st member, and authentic and cult-like gaming community group and web-page. I also cured sickness and had gaming-discovery is no longer stationary, but mobile and on-mobile -- and more movie gatherings and concert congreggations happen (where you evangelize your latest game obsession and what you are emphatic and rave about). Society is now anchored by the centering of time that extends only the nearest future (coming to a theather near you - usually a few days to a season listings for movie-posters in real-life). We think in masses about something we look-forward-to (a tour, a release, a drop, a fest-(ival). The ecosystem self-manages public-health accelerations reflected in itinerary, in 2nd places like venue, & 3rd places like stadium. Now tell me I'm unhireable as the youngest Pro-duct Manager hire in tech...I got stats, not tats - but we gang

Without secrets leveraged against me, it seems being alienated & austrisized feeling liberated seems oddly timed

Money solves problems..
money is a reason to approach a stranger...
we gathered over money...

27 minimum, untrained model, 6-point ID...9 if you don't turn-around and leave, and heart x-ray will do & 2 o-might-as-well

Friction era...who hurt Bill? Did he foot the build or was a bill fitted? BONE era...imperfectly perfect! Dumb-Genius: some see it in respect to the range of their intellect - so why not sell intelligence-collecting (stuff) and let their imagination-run-wild and cash in on the civil right vector movement of their <thinking>...well yes: $91.25 a y/r with a "piece" : *any* [1/4]

Monday (1st week), Tuesday (2nd week), & Wednesday (3rd week) are the 21-day-long 3-Day habits -- or Monday (1st week), Monday (2nd week), Monday (3rd week)

So annoying it doesn't outlive my existence

I like it here, and because I am from here

I want to have peace then explore the cold and dark sea -- I am not a space person tbh
I was an innocent and perfect child, really

I don't have any regard for what isn't in -- or during -- my existence, no plans either

I loved reading Alex Rider & Young Bond

I want to have it good and I want to be done right by -- I think you can rely on ANYONE wanting and feeling the same

I have to be right about everything -- 1 mistake could be the end of me entirely

I worked at SNAP (Snapchat) [private] and I worked at Twitter [public], I have private public space influence -- wanna book a room or extend another night?

I worked at Zoosk (dating app) - I advanced love. I hope for it to be heterosexuality and monogomy that are the strategically dominant strategy

I once had a friend (type) succeed as an entreprenuer and get venture capital investment. When I read the news of it, I shockingly and surprisingly encountered the shitty-ness of myself: I just wasn't happy for him and his success. I couldn't belive that I could be capable of such horrible and toxic emotions: i was really taken by it but immedately killed it -- I needed to be good to him. I knew then and there that success has not happed yet for man - we may not be happy for each other to have it better and to succeed. Given my ambition to succeed and my track record and history of success (I am a winner to myself), I realized may have lost friends as I became more successfull because they may have been demonized and possessed with sickness in knowing of my success. This presents an opportunity to make life, success, and friendships BIGGER!

News about a new world, a new game to be played, and a new type of winning -- capture it in your local (corner/convienent store, market, block)

My narrative is the one that matters -- not you knowing of me being domimated, not the alinenation, not the social outcasting

Ass and titties will have you rewarded in any era, always

I want my toys back, else you're losing everything luxury, lights, and spying to me

The Moon hangs over me as a symbol of homosexuality (American moon landing)
Regarding reality I impose on, By: Abenezer



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September 2025